Lots of things happened these few weeks, good and bad. O level results out and my hopes crashed into pieces. I failed my English, Math and Science. No Poly wants me and I wasn't given any chance to appeal. I do not want to go to ITE, no choice but have to go. Privite diploma are not recognize in Singapore thus ITE is the only solution. A long way, hopefully a brighter future.
I always discriminate Bartley students back in Primary school, I would always tell myself that I rather die than to study in that school. Students in that school are naughty. However, when I got my posting school result, I got posted to Bartley Secondary which is out of my six choice. Studying in Bartley Secondary School isn't too bad after all, I got to know a lot of friends who care for me. Being a Normal Academic student, chances of me getting into ITE is high and I would always tell myself I hated ITE students and did not want to be in the institution. However, O level results are bad and I was forced into ITE. Many of my friends(Marwin, Alan, Gilbert, En Shan, Xin Sheng and etc) in ITE aren't that bad and I still love their companionship.
Despite getting such a lousy result for my O level, my parents still encourage me and let me know that I still have hope especially my father. He did not flare at me like what he did two years ago when my sister got her result. He consoled me and tell me to continue working hard. Mother gave me her fullest support even though I did not help out in her stall these few days due to my bad results. Many friends consoled me and stand by me. This is also the first time I cried while talking on the phone with my friend(Yue Mei), guessed she was shocked hearing my cry because I'm always a 'happy-go-lucky' person.
Maybe going to ITE can really build up my basic foundation and help me excel in Poly in the near future. I've reflected a lot and I do not despise ITE students anymore. I hope for a brighter future and keep learning while I'm still young!
27 January, 2008
04 January, 2008
Unfaithful.
Countless relationship I've gone through, many girlfriends I've known and different types of girl I've saw, I still love her deeply. Knew her in the cyber world, woo-ed her in the net and asked her for a date. She was unconvinced about my love for her at first, because I'm two years younger than her. She does not believe I could handle a relationship well due to my lack of life experience. She treated me more like a younger brother than her boyfriend for some time. However, I've managed to convince and earn her trust. Soon, we were deeply in love.
She was the only girl that cares for my future. She threatened not to meet up with me if I did not study for exams. She gave me freedom and understood me when I was with my friends. She was the best girlfriend I've ever had. However, she is grounded by her mother. Her mother reads her messages in the phone, takes her wages she earned during attachment and gives her curfew.
I had conflict with her mother and even hurled vulgarities at her through the phone. Our relationship went downhill after that incident. She was monitored by her mother and was not allow to call or message me. We had to go into an underground relationship which was stressful and tiring for me. I would grabbed hold of any opportunity just to see her and send her home from work no matter how tired I am after school. She was my top priority.
She cheated on me and wanted to break up with me. She told me that due to our lack of meeting, her love for me faded off. She was with this boy who was her colleague. He sent her home from work and even went out together when I was busy mugging for my mid-year examinations. I was depressed but still told her that I do not mind. She came back and be my girlfriend once again.
Every night I would cry myself to sleep, thinking about them being together. There's no more trust in this relationship. However, I kept finding excuses to convince myself that I'm still very much in love with her. Suddenly, I woke up from everything, I message her and ask her for a break because I do not want my results to suffer. The reason for the break is lust, which was untrue. After that break up, I cried for months and after so many months, I'm still very much in love with her. I wouldn't go for her again, but once in awhile, I still think of her.
She is the girl that makes me understand what is love, she is the girl that makes me feel loved and she is the girl I'm willing to go all out because I love her.
She was the only girl that cares for my future. She threatened not to meet up with me if I did not study for exams. She gave me freedom and understood me when I was with my friends. She was the best girlfriend I've ever had. However, she is grounded by her mother. Her mother reads her messages in the phone, takes her wages she earned during attachment and gives her curfew.
I had conflict with her mother and even hurled vulgarities at her through the phone. Our relationship went downhill after that incident. She was monitored by her mother and was not allow to call or message me. We had to go into an underground relationship which was stressful and tiring for me. I would grabbed hold of any opportunity just to see her and send her home from work no matter how tired I am after school. She was my top priority.
She cheated on me and wanted to break up with me. She told me that due to our lack of meeting, her love for me faded off. She was with this boy who was her colleague. He sent her home from work and even went out together when I was busy mugging for my mid-year examinations. I was depressed but still told her that I do not mind. She came back and be my girlfriend once again.
Every night I would cry myself to sleep, thinking about them being together. There's no more trust in this relationship. However, I kept finding excuses to convince myself that I'm still very much in love with her. Suddenly, I woke up from everything, I message her and ask her for a break because I do not want my results to suffer. The reason for the break is lust, which was untrue. After that break up, I cried for months and after so many months, I'm still very much in love with her. I wouldn't go for her again, but once in awhile, I still think of her.
She is the girl that makes me understand what is love, she is the girl that makes me feel loved and she is the girl I'm willing to go all out because I love her.
02 January, 2008
1st post of 2008!
Looking at those students coming back from school for the first time of the year, some of them had already put on the serious look, ready to start studying anytime of the day. However, others went to school with long, coloured hair and are still in the holiday mood. Suddenly, I thought to myself, "Last time when the school starts, I'm also like the latter." Seeing them make me miss my Secondary school life. I still misses the tons of homework my subject teacher used to give me and the 'every two weeks' block test. Although it's tough and stressful, I still enjoy the processes and enjoying every moment.
Right now, I'm waiting for my 'O' level results. I just hope I could pass and get to the course that are suitable for me. Secondary school are all about finding true friendship. I've found some whom I could talk my hearts out to and although we quarreled times and again, our bonded friendship always hold us together as one. We are just like one big family whom always stay together and enjoy the fun and help one another in times of crisis.
Being in a Secondary school makes you become responsible young adults and also value the word, 'friendship'. Being in this competitive world, large social circle is crucial and the way you communicate is important too. Secondary school is just a stepping stone to adult. However, I will always remember the fun I once had, the stress I once endure and the tears I once shed.
Last but not least, may 2008 be much more brighter and colourful year for all of us. Good luck everyone!
Right now, I'm waiting for my 'O' level results. I just hope I could pass and get to the course that are suitable for me. Secondary school are all about finding true friendship. I've found some whom I could talk my hearts out to and although we quarreled times and again, our bonded friendship always hold us together as one. We are just like one big family whom always stay together and enjoy the fun and help one another in times of crisis.
Being in a Secondary school makes you become responsible young adults and also value the word, 'friendship'. Being in this competitive world, large social circle is crucial and the way you communicate is important too. Secondary school is just a stepping stone to adult. However, I will always remember the fun I once had, the stress I once endure and the tears I once shed.
Last but not least, may 2008 be much more brighter and colourful year for all of us. Good luck everyone!
Below are some pictures I've taken when I was in Secondary school.
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