Heads of my house.

Have you always thoght that why are you so unlucky to have this type of parents? Because I do, and from very young, I started developing this negative thinking.

Lets talk about my dad, he's a man who instill discipline in my family. A man whom I look up to till now, but he's also a violent man. Wonder why I look up to him even though he's a violent? He's someone very fast and witty, someone who won't fall for your trap easily. But on top of that, he's someone who is fierce and loud. When I was young, I often got beaten up by him as I got into trouble with the school's authority, and also because of my poor results. He's not like other fathesr who use cane to cane their children, he used bamboo sticks and leather belt to make you feel pain physically and also emotionally. After the beating session, I always ordered to jump 1000 times as my punishment. Now he's better, he changed a lot. He no longer uses fist to solve problems, he advised me on the method of studying and how to solve problems if I encounter any. He's a man with wisdom and that's why I forgave him and look up to him.

My mother, classy lady like what my friends said. A lady who would took you awhile in guessing her actual age. A lady who raised 4children with both hands. A lady whom I respect a lot when I was young. She will always be there for me when my dad beats me up, to protect me from the torturing and also, to give me a sense of security and motherly love. But things changed. I don't feel the sense of security and motherly love now. When she came home, my sister and I will just stopped chatting and kept quiet. Not because she was fierce, but because she's unreasonable. She rented a 4rooms-flat and bought a car for my brother despite him making her mad frequently. When we asked if she could give us some money, she would reply saying we kept on asking her for money and that we are killing here. She gave her love to her precious son and forgotten about us. Now, I've no respect for her and I look down on her.

Life is never fair. I conclude by saying "if you can't get what you wanted, don't yearn for it but go for it." No matter how badly my dad or mum treat me, they are still my parents. I don't hate them for what they had done, I am just disappointed because none of them really shower me with love, care and concern.