Unfaithful.

Countless relationship I've gone through, many girlfriends I've known and different types of girl I've saw, I still love her deeply. Knew her in the cyber world, woo-ed her in the net and asked her for a date. She was unconvinced about my love for her at first, because I'm two years younger than her. She does not believe I could handle a relationship well due to my lack of life experience. She treated me more like a younger brother than her boyfriend for some time. However, I've managed to convince and earn her trust. Soon, we were deeply in love.

She was the only girl that cares for my future. She threatened not to meet up with me if I did not study for exams. She gave me freedom and understood me when I was with my friends. She was the best girlfriend I've ever had. However, she is grounded by her mother. Her mother reads her messages in the phone, takes her wages she earned during attachment and gives her curfew.

I had conflict with her mother and even hurled vulgarities at her through the phone. Our relationship went downhill after that incident. She was monitored by her mother and was not allow to call or message me. We had to go into an underground relationship which was stressful and tiring for me. I would grabbed hold of any opportunity just to see her and send her home from work no matter how tired I am after school. She was my top priority.

She cheated on me and wanted to break up with me. She told me that due to our lack of meeting, her love for me faded off. She was with this boy who was her colleague. He sent her home from work and even went out together when I was busy mugging for my mid-year examinations. I was depressed but still told her that I do not mind. She came back and be my girlfriend once again.

Every night I would cry myself to sleep, thinking about them being together. There's no more trust in this relationship. However, I kept finding excuses to convince myself that I'm still very much in love with her. Suddenly, I woke up from everything, I message her and ask her for a break because I do not want my results to suffer. The reason for the break is lust, which was untrue. After that break up, I cried for months and after so many months, I'm still very much in love with her. I wouldn't go for her again, but once in awhile, I still think of her.

She is the girl that makes me understand what is love, she is the girl that makes me feel loved and she is the girl I'm willing to go all out because I love her.